If one, say, fails a computer science final but gets a 95 on the final project it all balances out in the end, right? Right? Good, that's what I thought.

Because it's been a long day (what with the final-failing and working and all), I am going to do something I saw in this journal and also this one. 10 things, to 10 people who I won't name. Here goes.

1) You will never know how much I appreciate and love you. There will never be words or time enough to make it all clear, but thank you. For everything, always.
2) I'm pretty sure you lied to me about pretty much everything when we were spending time together. But you know what? I forgive you. And, I hated that you were allergic to cats.
3) I have never laughed as hard with anyone as I have laughed with you. Or had someone laugh at me that much. I love that about you.
4) I will never, ever be ready for what you offered me on your couch that Thanksgiving years ago. Never.
5) Sometimes I am so grateful for your friendship, but sometimes you are a selfish, controlling, weirdo and then I feel all guilty for thinking that. You make me feel weak.
6) I wish I had a lot of money so I could take care of you. I know it wouldn't solve all your problems, but it seems like it would make it easier. I'd build you a house and buy you movies and books and animals and food for them, and you'd be happy. Right?
7) I am really, really sorry about ruining two July 4ths for you. I was wrong, a lot.
8) I am constantly worried something bad is going to happen to you and we will never be close.
9) Some of my best and worst memories of my twenties involve you. I haven't figured out what that means.
10) I'm terrified I'll never get over you. I'm terrified I will.